Hello everyone 👋. I wanted to talk about the concept of weight loss because I’ve had to undergo some lifestyle changes which resulted in me losing weight and I wanted to give you an insight into it and what I feel about this concept of weight loss.
By lifestyle changes, I mean diet changes. I’ve had to alter my diet quite a lot, due to certain reasons and this definitely impacted my life, especially my physical health and appearance. In short, what I’m trying to say is, I made diet changes because I had to, not because I wanted to.
I’ve always been an in-the-middle kid. Not too skinny but not too fat. But I am kinda chubby, so I considered myself to be fat. I’m pretty happy with the way I look and I’m very happy that I look the way I look. But, it’ll be very true to say that I’ve always wished to be thin or skinny. It’s definitely because of these messed up beauty standards. You know, small waist, pretty face, and all that. However, I never really made any huge effort to lose weight or become thin, because as I said, I am happy with the way I look.
This tiny desire of mine, however, did come true in the weirdest of ways. I got sick, because of which I had to make some diet changes. And because of this, I started to lose weight, quite quickly. My clothes were getting really loose and my bones became more visible. I was becoming thinner. I no longer considered myself chubby. In fact, it felt kinda nice to be thin. I wanted to look like this in the future too.
My happiness, however, was short-lived. I realised that this isn’t the way I wanted things to be. I felt something is missing. I didn’t feel me anymore. There were times when I looked in the mirror and wanted to could get my old chubby self back. And that, to me, was the biggest realisation of all. The desire to conform to the beauty standards of this world and the whacked up expectations everyone has for you, didn’t even matter to me. I wanted my old self back because then I felt much healthier and I was much happier. Don’t get me wrong, I wasn’t miserable because I lost weight, but I didn’t necessarily like it. I wanted to go back to my old diet and routine as fast as I could.
But I can imagine the transition into normalcy isn’t going to be really easy. Watching me start to gain weight is not going to be a simple process. I may not like it at all. I may hate it even. I’ll feel sad to let go of the reality that I was thin. The feeling of gaining weight is again not a good feeling. The weighing machine will become my enemy. However, I need to focus on the fact that this feeling is something I want. It’s going to benefit me in the long term and I’ll be happy that I went through it. It’s gonna be hard, and I may lose focus, but I’ve gotta do it. I will be doing it gradually though, which might make it calmer.
“Weight loss” is a really confusing concept. It’s like a trap. Going towards it can be really difficult and challenging, but once you’re caught, it’s really difficult to get out of it.
It is also kinda two-sided. What I mean by that is there are times weight loss can be healthy. It can boost your fitness and move you towards a healthier and more organic lifestyle. However, nowadays I feel that weight loss has become something people use to show off. “Look at me, I’ve lost so much weight!”. It’s so common to encourage people to lose weight that it has made weight loss lose its essence and meaning. People are so obsessed with losing weight that is getting kinda unhealthy. But can you blame them?
Losing weight has been portrayed as this process that can change your life, all for the better. I’m pretty sure y’all reading this can think of at least one movie where the protagonist had a much better life after he/she (it’s mostly she) lost weight. Although we have a lot of awareness created and being created of body positivity, the concept of weight loss is far more popular.
I hope that this changes, that people’s ideologies change on the way they look at weight loss. It’s a double-edged sword and must be used with caution.
Okay, that was a lot. I’m noticing that I’ve started to write really long blogs now. It feels nice. I didn’t know I had it in me.
Also, I’m doing sooo much better health-wise. I’m slowly moving back to my normal diet and things seem to be going great!
Thank you for reading this far and I hoped you liked what you read and that you may have resonated with it.
Bye!!
