Hello. How are you doing? I don’t really know what’s happening to me. I’m pushing off writing to the very last minute and this isn’t really nice. I wrote this topic and left it in my drafts and, I forgot about it tbh. But now that I’m back, let’s see what I’ve got.
I’m 18 right now and that’s quite old. I mean, I’m an adult now. But damn, I still feel like a 5 year old😂. It’s just that I’ve grown up so fast. I didn’t even realise time go by.
The first time I actually came to the realisation that I’ve grown up is when I finished school. 14 years of school gone in almost a snap of my fingers. Few days after I was done with my final exams, I was just like, “Omg!!!! I’ve gotta go to college now. I don’t know what to do!!!! Ahhhh!!!” It was scary okay. I always knew that this day would come, but I never was truly prepared.
Something else which I find really different now is the constant thought about the future. Okay, it isn’t constant, but it’s waaaay more than what it used to be. Talking about future job prospects, further education, moving out and stuff like that isn’t something rare. I don’t really like thinking about the future way too much cuz that makes my anxious. I try to take a day at a time.
The way we think really does change once you grow up. I mean it is obvious, the way we process things mentally will change. But there are times it fascinates me to think about what I used to say/think as a child because I swear, I don’t think like that anymore.
I saw a video the other day on tiktok. In the video the person was talking about how their niece was happy that they had moved into a house with a low ceiling, so that whenever she lets go of her balloon, it won’t fly to far up and she’ll be able to catch it easily. That’s such a nice way to look at things!!! So simple and yet so smart.
When I was younger I used to have arguments with my mom because I truly believed that chickens have 4 legs 😂😂. See, it was because chickens don’t stand straight. They bend a little, so it made sense that they may have 4 legs. I don’t know why I’m sharing this cuz know y’all will think I’m dumb 😂😂.
But what I’m trying to get at here is that we lose so much of our childhood essence. The innocence, curiosity, excitement and all that good stuff. We don’t even realise when all that gets replaced with stress, anxiety, hurt. I’m not saying that growing up is something which brings miseries but I feel it is important to keep up with that child self of yours so that it’s a perfect balance.
Seeing the world through a child’s eye can really change our perspectives and help us do better. So how do you do that? Well, I’ve yet to figure that out but I feel everyone will have their own journey to it.
This felt really nice to write. I’ve got some thinking to do after this. I hope you liked what you read.
Here’s to awakening our inner child!
Bye.
